looking for perfection

yesterday, we have our rehearsal for upcoming event this week end...me and my friends have a discussion on certain issue arrising throughout the preparation (luahan hati)....ya, its normal that some of things which make us down...kecewa / dissapointed etc...ya, at this peak hours, it's not about complaining...but it's good to share our burden with each other...and in a way, to advice & give positive support to each other that God has His own special way which is beyond our worldly mind.

Maybe we're too looking for perfection in doing things...but we forgot that we're not a perfectionist, the only perfectionist in this world / universe, is the Lord Himself. thinking & worried too much until we forgot there's some1 is there for us...

SUKAR?

Bacaan : Amsal 17:15-20
Suatu hari, Anto didatangi sahabat karibnya. Mau pinjam $$. Sebenarnya Anto keberatan, tetapi sukar menolak. Akhirnya ia memberi pinjaman. Ketika utang itu tak kunjung dibayar, Anto tidak berani menagih. Lagi-lagi karena sukar!
Sukar adalah paduan rasa enggan, segan, malu bercampur hormat, yang membuat kita tidak berani berterus-terang. Kita jadi tidak jujur pada sesama dan diri sendiri. Berkata "ya" padahal "tidak", atau sebaliknya. Di mulut memuji, di hati memaki. Gara-gara sukar, yang salah dibiarkan; yang benar tidak dibela; yang tidak betul dipertahankan. Kita sulit mengambil tindakan tegas.
Rasa sukar bukanlah sikap kristiani. Alkitab mengajar kita berkata jujur dan tulus. Apa adanya. Menghormati orang bukan berarti harus selalu setuju dan mendukung tindakannya, termasuk tindakan yang fasik (ayat 15). Sikap demikian justru termasuk "serong hati" atau "memutar-mutar lidah" (ayat 20). Tuhan memandangnya sebagai kekejian! Jika kita sungguh hormat dan cinta pada seseorang, pasti kita berani menegurnya dalam kasih. Tidak berpura-pura baik, seperti lawan yang mencium berlimpah-limpah (Amsal 27:6). Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih tiap waktu (ayat 17), dan kasih tidak suka kepalsuan, tetapi cinta kebenaran (1 Korintus 13:6).
Budaya sukar jangan dipelihara. Ia membuat kita menjadi terlihat halus, tetapi tidak tulus. Terlihat ramah padahal pemarah. Mulai sekarang, mari bersikap apa adanya. Bukankah kita bisa bicara jujur tanpa menjadi kasar? Atau, menyatakan ketidaksetujuan tanpa mengurangi rasa hormat dan kasih? -JTI

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ko aku

The journey....
it has been very interesting week for me....last week i was so excited of going to gempuru besai iban @ kemaman (29-31 august)...personally i do learn something new during that 3 days, especially in our prayer gathering & sharing between each of us. Most of us have the "bebanan" the urge to pray for our community - the ibans...as we can see there still lots of field which yet to be yield...some of us still misunderstand of the meaning of praise & worship...not about bringing the people to dance to your music but to bring them into the worship & feel the presence of God. Anyhow, i'm glad & love the presentation done by Kok Lanas, Kelantan - "meruan ku ngenang".

The sharing....
Paling ngerindu aku sepanjai gempuru tuk, ya nyak sharing ari bala kaban kami PBM. Masalah family sida ya ka mayuh bedau nerima / ngelala Tuhan...bakani halangan / cobaan di asai sida ya ari family ka halang / ngelesei ka pelayanan sida....asai berat ati aku ka ninga ya...Puji Tuhan laban apai indai & menyadi aku ngelala Tuhan, tang aku kasih tekenang ka uncle auntie (menyadi apai indai aku) ka mayuh agi jauh ngelimpang ari jalai Tuhan...amai susah enti bala ka disayau kitai bedau ngelala Tuhan.

Ari sharing, diak bala kami lebih rapat ngau pangan diri...lalu nemu gik masalah pengidup sida ya. Arap Tuhan muka ka jalai sida ya dalam menginjil bala menyadi sida ya...Amen

kena BOOM

This morning, when i just sit & on my pc...tiba-tiba (jeng jeng jeng)..."Mxxxxx!!! Kenapa @#$%^**&^" i was like ????? actually that "datin" asking me 1 announcement abt her open booth which i hvt sent out...mcm mana i nak sent out if the content it self still change here & there (in other words, not complete?!?) Thank God, at that moment, i was cooling myself, giving my say (politely tell her) why like that....and she cont @#$%^*^##.... haih....just nod & ok with her REQUEST...haih...what a day, awal2 pagi dah kena MAKAN.

Thank God she's not my immediate superior.. ish ish ish

can't wait

feel so "malas" to work lately...there's no day for me to just relax...reviewing what i've done lately @ work...clean up my work doc on my pc & work space...everything seems kelam kabut & not organize.

The H1N1 thingy is getting worst week by week...today, the press reported 6 more death cases (now i think it should reached 50 ppl mati) so every1 must be very extra careful....talk abt being careful, starting tomorrow & till sunday, i got 3 events which i need to attend (in public areas)....wished i can skip it but since there's none of my team going so i have to be there to tunjuk muka sekejap. plus, i got "special" one day off on monday...so it should be ok. just attend each of the events for the longest 2 hours then i will be back home.

just don't hv the mood to work...i need motivation of a "holiday"!! hmmm...what i'm going to do this monday (off day)?
1. clean up my room / baju / lagi rajin ...help to tidy up the house, which i've neglected for the past few weeks.
2. online (back with my FB) wanna know my friend's update
3. hmm...watelse..what about my lunch? simple--bread keke
4. maybe kalau rajin, an entry of what i've done that day

For sure i'm not planning of going out anywhere that day...a good rest & relax at home.

not bad~~

last tuesday, attended Lenka's press conference @ concorde hotel...she's pretty & petite size for org puteh...love the way she answer each question asked by the media. Well, i only know 1 of her song which is on air in 1 of tv commercial-"The show" (match make)...nice

last tuesday, my bos pass to me & colleagues a copy of her cd with her signature as well (cool!!)...after listening to her songs, now i understand what some of the comments given to her that her songs is someting special / unique in the current market. I specially love the song " Trouble is a friend" very catchy songs...just love it. feels like im in the 70s kekeke

lots of event coming up & its all start at night...haih, worried abt the transport.

i'm terribly not in the mood to work at this hour this moment

aiyooo....
it's
raining
outside
(sejuk
amat
in
office)
i should
be thankful
cos it rains


got
work
to do
(but
no mood
to do)
i should
be thankful
cos i got a job

Konferensi Iban Semenanjung @ Terengganu (29-31August 2009)

was invited by my friend to join the conference this month @ terengganu...at 1st was hesitated to joined, but after some time being encourage by my friend & pastor, i've decided to joined & also invited other Iban speaking friends to joined it. The responds was overwhelm...almost all of the iban speaking in our BM ministry will be joining it. Just that, now waiting accomodation arrangement by the conference team. Still wondering which bus to take...sani? transnational? ... Just hope, we've choose the right bus, good bus driver to drive us safely to the location. What's more important, hope can get to know more about God's word through the conference. On the other hand, promoting our PBM conference this september to the people there. ;p

Yesterday, hv my haircut...(haih) not that satisfied...still prefer my hometown stylist.