im not invisible

what do you feel when you pass by your consider close friends (not just once but a few times) but being ignore of your presence?

i believe im not that invisible that you do not notice me at all...and what's more annoying when that close friend only stick / take note on certain individual. Anyway you're not that busy to say hi too isn't ? I don't mind if you prefer to chit the chat / stick to only a certain individual, but ignore people around you ? hey girl, i don't mind not to chit the chat either. Just don't like the attitude of selfish / no acknowledgement in friendship...as in you only like to talk to some people (85% you only talk to that particular person in a group, & you just ignore the story of others) or if there's any special occasion, you prepare & heading it so specially for that person while none of us experience the same preparation / treatment? helo?! what is the purpose of the fellowship?

i recall there was another incident, where by the 3 frens go for a shopping spree for a program (well, coming back looking "very tired & busy like" ) ask us in a directive way for us to help them to wrap the thing...& hv fellowship on their own & their facial expression as if we're not helping them at all...hello? do you need the whole team to accompany you for the shopping spree.

im not sure whether it is a liaising agenda...i would prefer a group of friends sharing the same story & the same song with everyone...if you want to share something between the 2 of you, don't share it in front of us & make other people invisible...

with this case, i unlikely to share any story even it matters & don't share anything, because it seems like everyone know somebody "secret" while me being the guessing part...now im feeling left out from the fellowship...why others know about their story & no one likes to share it with me...it is not a sad or not good to be told matters. when i ask, they giving answer like "what do you think" (with the expression they know something but don't want to tell)

don't be surprise if one day they received news that im getting engage / married / get a new job / going back to hometown for good tomorrow...no used to declaring as closed friends but keeping things from each other

i don't share with you either from now...i closed my case from now on.